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[05 Aug 2003|10:52am]
[ mood | content ]

whew i'm at kaylyns house! today chris and i are goignto the movies andi 'm getting my hair cut really short, like to my chin. it's still black, i'll post a picture when i get one

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[02 Jul 2003|03:36am]
i'm leaving the abhorrance.

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[28 Jun 2003|12:35am]
[ mood | awake ]

everyone go see charlies angels..it's MMM the boys are sexy and the movie is God. lol

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[21 Jun 2003|02:48am]
[ mood | okay ]

not a freshie not a freshie...

i'm kind of late, i couldhave done this at 12:30 when i got home..but ohhhhhh well...

stephie wrote a recap type thing i want to too because i want to remember all the strong points!!!

it was good and bad at the same time, good most of the time at school bad at home..but i liked it. (the good definetly outweighs the bad, i think) lets see...went out with taylor..broke up with him for jeremy, went out with joey witles, broke up with him for jeremy, went out with brett, broke up with him for jeremy..FINALLY go out with jeremy, he shatters my heart into 4238947457 peices..i cry in and out of school for weeks..met jacob becker, he's so great! he treated me really great during then and really like, understood me better than any other guy. i was bestfriends with megan carly and jessica..one day jessica and a bunch of people skip and go to her house and drink some abd break a jack daniels bottle..jess couldn't tell her mom that so her and cary blamed me, i denied it to her mom but then i tlaked to jessica and i told her mom i did it, because yeah i'd do anything for jessica, even ifthat was a shitty thing to do. so i wasn't allowed to hang out with her anymore, so we kind of grew apart but not that much..then i talked to chris arnold a lot in home ec and stuff and we started going out..no one thought it would last...around christmas time megan and i got in a LOT of fights..i mean a LOT..one time i was pmsing and we got in a fight and we ought like everyday after it, then like right at christmas we got in a HUGE one and didn't talk for a week, it wasn't the same for a long time. sincei couldn't hang out with jessica, i started hanging out with kaylyn again. we were brest(best) friends in 8th grade..so it's not like she was NEW or anything..carly got pissed because i started hanging out with katie and tori too and it was liek i was ditching her for them when that wasn't it at all, i'm allowed to have more than one bestfriend. i'm allowed to have more than 2 and 3...so what the fuck..then because no one called anyone carly jessica and i didn't hang out as much, carly blamed me and was all liek amanda i dn't consider you my bestfriend anymore..and neither does jessica...what the fuck is that i mean seriously..who does that to people? treating them like shit..hmm we got in a lot of fights though..so whatever..i still considered her one of my bestfriends..and jessica..because i don't treat people like carly does..and i love them! then i met tyler!!! at woods when i was with kaylyn tori and katie..and we hit it off like woAh..and we talked so much and got a long so great..and we talked on the phone for 6 hours once we both pretended to be sick..lol..and i broke up with chris..i guess for him but then i thoguht abotu it a lot and it hurt..not being with him because i couldn't picture myself with anyone else but him..so i aksed him back out and we went back out the next day lol..i felt like shit for doing that to tyler though, tori and i got really close..pretty fast..oh choot i forgot to mention kayla back in the beginning..lol i met her in government, she was great and we got realllllly close. so yeah..what happened with megan after the fights and the not talking thing..we weren't close at all anymore..but she was still my bestfriend..she always will be one of them..she knows so much about me and i know so much about her it would be too hard not to be friends. lol if that makes sense? one time i was over kaylas..she pulled up stephanie's journal..hmm she told me a lot of bad shit about her..so like in first semester i always gave her dirty looks and shit..yeah i was a pretty bad person in 1st semester..ew one time in english we were playing some stupid game and brian kok was talking about me being anorexic or something and she stood up for me and the nshe was liek amanda is your team cheating or something and laughed and i was like -dirty look- and i turned away..lol ew i'm such a fucker..ummm yeah so jeremy and i started talkign again and he told me he had feelings for me..so i broke up with chris..(ew..i'm stupid) and yeah..second semester i met amanda bennett!!! she's the GREATEST girl from south..i love her lol..jeremy asked me out..and jacob askedh er out on the same day..and it was all so f'ing great...i was so happy..i'm sure i wrote about it somewhere. while we were going out nothing could get me down.nothing..then he broke up with me again. i didn't really talk to anyone..and i cried a lot..not as much as the first time..but yeah.. :( and jacob broke up with amanda..not good not good...i got ok grades first semester then second semester started and i failed english and gym..and got d's in three classes, and a b in biology. 4th marking period..i failed english and gym..one d one c and 2 b's! i brought them up a lot i guess...sort of..ALMOST three months ago, i talked to stephanie!!!!! I'm SOO happy i did!!!!!! I LOVE STEPHANIE RODRIGUEZ. i also met chris weber this year..he's one of my best guy friends too..lol. i love him!! stephanie and i had like a little thing on our first month where i wrote her a poem and she wrote me one lol it was good...my birthday was SOOO MUCH FUN. not that i had a party or anything, just school that day was fun. i was supposed to have ATS but i was like fuck no, not on my birthday. and i got presents and stuff!!! w00t! did i forget to say that my closest friends are now megan stephanie kaylyn tori kayla laura and katie? amanda too, but we don't liek do anything with eachother out side of school..she's so sweet..awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww amanda!!! we had such great times in english and biology..and it's time for ms bury to not be a bitch all the time..and ms fenner to die because she ois so messed up..and ms flowers and ms procaccini to get fired because they are the worst teachers ever..everything i know in english is because i went to a website and decided i wanted to actualyl learn it. the only thing i learned in her class was the..you and me you and i thing.it's good when you can prove a junior and sophomore wrong when you are a freshman..anywaysss......stephanies birthday was good times..i started liking chris a few weeks ago..some little drama with katie..today yesterday and wednesday were finals..i blew off three of them.. the english one spanish one and gym..i tried on the other ones. chris likes me! i kissed him today finally!! i guess that is the end of school...lol..i would write about home..but this is ass long. so bye!!!


matt willie and david were cool in gym too, even though they made me look bad because they participated and i didn't

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[20 Jun 2003|01:28pm]
and jessica and christie

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[20 Jun 2003|01:28pm]
and laura and katie.

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[20 Jun 2003|01:25pm]


i forgot her when i was writing..lol

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[20 Jun 2003|12:50pm]

SCHOOLS OVER!!! yessssssssssssssssssssssss now..9 weeks of..well, no school.

i came home and made a grilled cheese and it was so good i'm goign to make another one yummm

i'm so excited!!!!

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[19 Jun 2003|12:33am]
matt's so sweet..he payed for my pictures..and my lunch! mm that triple cheeseburger from wendys was good..and those pictures have brought so much joy to my day! lol 6 cameras!!!!

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[16 Jun 2003|07:39pm]
[ mood | good ]

mm updating..

not much has happened since the last time i wrote here, ok well a lot has..to sum it up..

-jeremy broke up with me...i'm not alright
-just now i'm STARTING to get over him..
-i like chris
-my hair has been the following colors; black blue purple teal and green
-i got a kitty! named it croghan, after my friend kayla because it falsl over a lot
-saw the lizzie mcguire movie a couple times
-on april first, i made a new friend.(stephanie) and now she's one of my bestfriends. wo0t. the others are megan tori and kaylyn. YAY
-i failed gym and english 3rd markign period..then i'm pretty sure i failed them both this marking period. that blows because you can't make up gym in summer school.
-i don't really know what else to write..there are things i can't write in here but they aren't that important anyway. i'm so happy for everyone leaving deal! YAY i get my permit in about 9 months...i'll be driving..and i'll be able to see you dc people!!!! yesss, i've changed though. be prepared.


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[29 May 2003|06:09pm]

You are red. You are impure, but noble. You are precious and true to yourself and others. When you love, you love entirely, and will do anything to make your love happy. You are sure of your identity, therefore, you cannot change others or be changed. You are a true prince, you may be forgotten, but without you, none of us could go on.

What inner color are you?

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aww tori said i was noble.. she's so sweet. hey willie!!! aha you're a coooooool guy.

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soooooo happy [21 Apr 2003|11:34pm]
[ mood | drunk ]

ThE StRoKeS 813: I made a poem
ThE StRoKeS 813: hckhmm
savestheday723: really
ThE StRoKeS 813: I have a girl
ThE StRoKeS 813: and her hair is blue
ThE StRoKeS 813: I ask myself
ThE StRoKeS 813: what should I do?
ThE StRoKeS 813: shall I keep loving and giving her care
ThE StRoKeS 813: or shall I denie what i think in sight of her hair
ThE StRoKeS 813: but i still love her black blond or blue
ThE StRoKeS 813: I hope she loves me too
ThE StRoKeS 813: :-)
savestheday723: awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
ThE StRoKeS 813: lol
savestheday723: i love you
ThE StRoKeS 813: I love you too



i wrote him a poem back

i have a boy
and his hair is long
i hope things between us
never go wrong
he told me he loved me
and i love him too
us to eachother
will always be true
he doesnt like my blue hair that much
but it will wash away
its with him that i'm happy
its with him that i'll stay

lol. yeah so what..make fun of me i dont care. we were kinda playing its not liek they are serious serious poems.


savestheday723: sooooooomedaaaaaaay
savestheday723: ooooooover the rainboooooow
ThE StRoKeS 813: doo do
savestheday723: weee wiiiiiiiiiiiiilll booooooooone
ThE StRoKeS 813: lol
savestheday723: yooooull use a condom and then we'll go hoooome


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[21 Apr 2003|03:37am]
[ mood | artistic ]

amanda, why are you awake?
because im talking to amanda
but you are amanda
but im talking to amanda
to yourself?
no, to amanda
ahahaha...its funny cuz its true 3:37 am

haha amanda you like my icon? yeah amanda does

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[19 Apr 2003|03:35pm]

you're rachel...sophisticated and cosmopolitan, but
a little on the shallow side. your friends
envy the ease with which you attract members of
the opposite sex, but they know they'll always
come first.

which Friends character are you?
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im so bored right now i think im going to tape wrapping paper to my wall and make a big mural of macaronis

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[10 Apr 2003|04:13am]
mm its 4:13 in the morning, i swear i just looked at the clock and it said 4:11 but whatever. im kinda bored and the only thing to do in clean my room but i dont want to. i dont know what clothes my mom washed and what ones she didnt she just left a eally big pile of clothes on my floor. i did all my homework, english and government homework. yeah...i brought my government grade up to a D!!!!!!!!! everyone applaud for me not failing it. today we got grade sheets and it said 58.9% if i had done ONE more homework in the class then i would have passed it. Ms. Frick was liek "amanda you can come afte school today or tomorrow and we can find a way to bring this up" so i went today and the only way she would let me do it is if i re-took this test we had a week ago that was 50 points. the first time i took it i knew nothing about it and i cheated because i had the bill of rights right in front of me...and all i got was a 23. so a 46%...she was like "you need to get atleast a 27 on this test to bring your grade up, 4 points will do it" so i had to learn EVERYTHING on the test and then take it right there..im happy she lets us study before we make up tests..i was studying for an hour and 15 minutes and i got a 34! a 68% yeah it sucks but IM PASSING. if only i could do that in english...and spanish...and if only i hadnt skipped gym the third time. damn 7th lunch for being so good. i went to sleep at 5:00 and i didnt get up until 9:30, i was supposed to get up at 7:00 so i could go running but i dont know what happened. somehow my alarm got changed from 7 to 9 and i cant go running at 9:30..its too late. 8:45 is the latest i'll go out. i missed the day before too because my legs were so tired and i wanted to go to sleep...so tomorrow i get to run 3 miles. woooooot wooooooot. my stomach is looking more muscly since i started. yess

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[08 Apr 2003|06:00am]
[ mood | thirsty ]

you guys want to see more pics of me? oh well if you dont too bad because im posting them anyway. woooo......








yay...me! i look pregnant in the one where im standing up in the blue dress..thats homecoming! i just got out of the shower 5 minutes ago..i have to get to school early so i can do my government homework that i forgot to pick up after school....argh

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[07 Apr 2003|10:19pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

yessss.......i learned how to put pictures here and now i have pictures to put on! woot heres a big thing of almost everyone


i went to stephanies house..i got lost on the way and i had to run through e-town and i got all muddy and dirty...jory was there for a while he's kinda dumb but some things he says are funny. her grandmothers really mean but her moms nice. i looked like shit buuuuuut they didnt care.


thats me...stephanie dont i look good with your hat? lol oh yeah. while falling down the stairs.

this is me and stephanie lol.


ah good times. im tired from all the running...im running 30 miles in april. for no reason except im all fat and i want to get in shape for field hockey and lacrosse...my school makes you run around 4 miles a day. damn this stupid school.

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[07 Apr 2003|03:07pm]
[ mood | bored ]

One devotion to an empty moment.
Can't you stay tonight?
Silence broken with words unspoken.
Now she's on her knees.
No more feeling so useless.
Can I beg for one more she said.
Taking with arms wide open.
Longing for sleep again.
The air is clearing.
Again, we're breathing.
Water turns to wine.
The day is tired,
the night inside her.
Now she is alive.
No more feeling so useless.
Can I beg for one more she said.
Taking with arms wide open.
Longing for sleep again.
But now, I'm awake.
But now, I'm awake...
Can't breath in to fill something.
Take my breath away!
No more feeling so useless.
Can I beg for one more she said.
Taking with arms wide open.
Longing for sleep again.
But now, I'm awake.


i got home from school about 30 minutes ago, i walked home with this guy whos mentally challenged, hes sweet. school pretty much the same today just ms fenner my gym teacher was really pissing me off she already failed me this marking period so why should i participate in her class? grrr oh yeah i went to school late because i got up at 7 so i didnt leave until 7:50 something...so first period was almost over by the time i got there. oh well.
shoot i forgot to get my government homework ahhhhhhhhh no :,( i fail government too...

happy amanda?

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poems... [17 Mar 2003|01:57am]
[ mood | awake ]

for my english class we haad to write a sonnet a free verse and a fun poem. heres mine...

"Under the Sea"
If it were up to me,
and I always got my way,
I'd live under the sea,
in an octopus's shade.
I'd take all the fish,
and make them into fish sticks,
but for chicken I would wish,
because of fish I would get sick.
I would ask jeremy to go with me,
because he can fight sharks,
he also knows tai chi,
and when he gets bored he barks.
I hope the octopus doesnt sting me,
I'd make a funny noise and go "whizeee!"

"Pichu Croghan"
I know a girl and her nickname is Pichu.
When i saw her I said "I'm glad to meet you."
She has strawberry hair and it's pink tipped.
All the boyfriends she has, get whipped.
She wears 6.5 and is only 5'2.
She's a small girl but i am too!
We have Ms. Frick for social studies.
Pichu and I are great buddies!
When it snowed we made and igloo with Laura
She's not jewish so she doesn't read the Torah.
She smells just like Megan Holzman.
It's funny because they both hold men!
Pichu has an orange hoodie and I have a blue one.
I wrote about Kayla, and now i'm done.

"The Secret Ingredient"
Squishy and thick, you know what it is.
If you dont like it then get up outta my biz.
This secret ingredient comes in three great shades.
Brown, green and sometimes black is made.
I wonder why it cant be white?
If it was possible then that would be tight.
I'm hoping now that u can guess what it is.
I have black crack syndrome like this girl named liz.
It's always better when its slippery and slides.
A lot more comfy when its soft and it glides.
If you can't guess it now then you should be slapped.
I'm going to scoop it up and give it back to you wrapped.
It's this wonderful thing that makes me say "WHOOP!"
This secret ingredient is nothing but POOP!!

they are stupid i know but i cant write anything serious...i'm afraid my teacher and the other students will be like ew...i didnt know she was like that..

you are the rust on the razor that threatens my neck, the blood that pours out of my mouth, the 2nd bottle of aspirin and that drink of vodka that i need.
nothin i say makes it any better, so what can you expect of me? im not perfect no matter how hard i try for you...i guess theres just nothing i can do.
i thought you would be there for me whenever i needed you...atleast thats what you told me. i guess you lied and this whole thing has been a lie, thanks for wasting my time.
you are the slit on my arm i sed nothing about, the acid from my stomach that got to my throat...the last pill out of the bottle.
it looks like you turned it around on me again...just like everyone else. its not worth it...you cant even hear me...seems like this is finally over. i dont want to let go.

i wrote that about my friend. i thought i lost her..we were goign through some tough times.

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[17 Mar 2003|01:08am]
[ mood | awake ]

um im mad at how i was avril lavigne before she was..i have my class picture for 6th grade and im there in a grey wifebeater and baggy jeans..i wonder what kind of shoes i wore back then? i know that in the summer of 7th grade i had a spike bracelet i LOVED that i wore before anyone i knew..im so sick of people telling me i look like her..time to get the black dye out of my hair right now..i want to bleach it and dye it lime grean. it'll be tight. i looked like me before she came around....fucker

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